Looking for a new job. :)

happy

i'm a happy girl.

:)

the last time round i blogged in november, i love my old man.

now in january, i love him even more.

doing things i've never really done for anyone else.

it's a change in things.

and now with the attachment in ocbc almost over, and with colleagues encouraging me to continue with them and pursue a career in ocbc, i'm more encouraged.

still considering though, because if i join, great expectations would be expected of me, snce i've been with them for so long. stressed. but it would be a good stepping stone since the job normally requires degree grads. and they recently opened the position for those with dip.

and if i do join them, after a couple of years, i could leave and join others for a higher position.

i'm very excited. and still thinking. and still very in love.

everyone around is happy too.

my family and relatives are not against the r/s too. there's acceptance from my dad, and my dearest aunties, towards this.

i'm a very happy girl in fact. not only happy. :)

Forgot abt this place for the past couple of months..

Been happy with my life so far.

Work has been great, with the lunches with my colleagues and dinner & dance after work with everyone dressed up as something.. it was really fun.. i'm taking up more workload.. but it's manageable.. i'm covering work for the full time staffs that are going on leave.. stressful.. but good experience and i get to learn stuff.

Relationship was initially ambiguous, we both didn't know how it would be.. but after awhile.. we've decided to start something together, it's a great first step towards our future. all the saving up will go towards the renovation & furniture. and somewhere mid-late next year, we'll be looking out for flats. i'm still very confused with the walk in selection, balloting, e-sale thing on hdb. the site is not very friendly for lost people like me lor. =\ all i know now is, a safe range of cost for a 4room flat will be like 230k assuming we don't get prime areas. punggol/sengkang is the cheapest @ <200k, but it's too far from both our parents. but i love the full length and 3/4 length windows there that lets in more sunlight to the house.. it's okay.. we still got a year.. availability of the location of flats is volatile. it keeps changing. a couple of days ago, we saw bukit panjang and cck still available. but last night, it was all sold.

interesting that flats get taken up so soon. i think hdb needs to build more 4room instead of 5room. the 5rooms are all left unsold. in jurong, they even converted the unsold 5 rooms into 2-rooms. -_-"!

it's so weird to find myself talking about such things. i mean, suddenly, i'm talking abt things i wld never have talked abt in the past.. within 2 months.. such a change in me.. in what i'm thinking..

but all this planning.. surfing for info to keep ourselves prepared..

makes me feel great. =)

even if that one thing in my life fails now..

i will try to be fine..

i have really sensitive colleagues.. a couple of them..

they were able to sense the difference in me, in the first and second week..

i guess the third week will be another experience for them..

because i will BUG them for work to keep myself occupied..

i brought my tiny beanbag eeyore to work.. and victor&mckenzie is having fun with it..

victor jotted a little speech bubble that said "Please help victor spread this, thankyou!" and put my eeyore on the paper.. imagine the surprise i got in the morning when i saw it.. haha

mckenzie made my eeyore look suicidal by sitting it on up of the lcd ibm screen.. he said that i would probably be feeling like this when things are final..

and he's right.. but ok.. not that extreme.. i've gotten out of the phase in life that "suicide is the solution"

haha

busy..

am i going to make the painful decision to leave the friends, that i thought would be til old age, for the sake of not making them stand in a horrible position of being in the middle?

perhaps i should.. since some people will not be happy until they feel that i am without friends..

nevertheless, i have spent my last half of a semester very happily with them.. all the happiness has to end sometime anyway, right?

maybe now is the time when i'm having my attachment..

anyways, have been busy working.

the first 2 days were boring, but my work started coming in yesterday.

and have decided to immerse myself totally in work.

to clamp down the unhappiness that i'm forcing on myself for the time being.

to be a happier person.

i like my work.

although the stress is piling up, my work isn't.

i'm receiving orders and work from all 3 of the groups in the team, instead of the original 1.

some things might be difficult, but i like it, and is coming to loving it because i'm learning much more stuff.

maybe when my ethusiasm dies down, i will start to slack.. haha

you should be happy..

very happy in fact..

that i'll be leaving this band of friendship..

all because of you.

it's sad..

to know that some people haven't given up on their pretentious life..